sad :*(

it's' really hard being the responsible one....but someone has to do it...
so i have been feeling like crap all day long....
i slept all day and kept my phone on silent b/c i didn't want to be bothered...
i was on my way into my bedroom at 1145 or so tonight and noticed that i
had missed about 15 calls from my Uncle Lee....so I gave him a call back...expecting the worst....at 10:15 tonight my Grandma Korvela passed away...she was the only grandparent left...and I was very close to her...why is it that everytime that something bad happens...10 things worse happen right afterwards....my Uncle is planning the funeral for Friday....so now not only did I lose my last living Grandparent...but I have to go a week before I can get any closure...a week of Erik needing to be taken care of b/c of his knee and needing to chauffer Jess around...normally these things wouldn't bother me but I don't know how I am going to deal with all of this, christmas shoppingn for the family, and work all week long....I just need to go to sleep and wake up to it being January.....
On top of it all....We have $15 till Friday and two cars to fill with gas...shitty huh???

Oh well, I am strong and have made it through many rough things so I should pull through...who knows this may top the cake and next thing you know I will be at PRARIE.....at least then I would be in Fargo...

I am gonna go watch Nick at Nite